Can't believe Christmas is 2 weekends away. Will be Kyleighs first Christmas and my first Christmas without Aiden since he has been born, makes me sad but I'm going to try to make the best of it and look forward to Christmas night when he comes back.
There are 3 birthdays this month, my moms, my brother Jacobs and Nates. Not sure what we are going to do for Nates but I'm sure going to miss birthdays with the family. Kyleigh is already showing interest in food, she opened her mouth as I was putting a chocolate animal cracker in mine and then gave me a look that was probably saying, "Why didn't you share??" So I went and warmed up some bananas, apples and pears and she ate a good tablespoon of all of them. When it was first offered she wouldn't take it from a spoon but she would from my finger but now she knows what a spoon is and that there is usually something good on it. I haven't tried the rice cereal yet, she may or may not like it but I guess we will see.
Aiden will be 3 years old next month and I can hardly believe it! He is getting so big and he is so smart. I could put him in school next school year, that is if I can get him to use the potty which has been a challenge so far, so I guess we will see what happens in the next few months. Kyleigh will also be 6 months old next month, where is the time going? My birthday is also next month and it's the big 21 but I feel so much older than that, I guess that's what 2 kids do to you but I love them anyway and wouldn't take anything back.
I would also like to get a few things straight with people who may or may not read this. When I was pregnant with Aiden I was, and still am, grateful for my mom being there for me every step of the way. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do when I found out I was pregnant, of course abortion was out of the question and from the beginning I was pressured to do adoption and from that point on, I was on my own and had to do it alone and give my baby up alone. I spent months pondering on if I wanted to do it, I went to classes that were designed to help us do it and I was left alone to make the decision. When I was trying to figure out the best parents for my child I had picked a couple but that fell through and then I decided to tell my counselor that I wanted my parents to adopt him and she told me that was a bad idea, lets just say I didn't go back to the classes and never met with her again. A few months past and my mom expressed her concerns with me about giving my baby away, throughtout this whole intire time it had been a family fued between imidiate and extended family, I finally decided to keep my baby and that didn't make my dad happy at all and the feud between my parents began until we all sat down and watched an episode of The Locater which changed everyone, including my dad. After that there was less tension in the house. I did have a couple of breakdowns but am thankful that my mom helped get me through that. As labor approached, I really wasn't that scared because I knew that I wouldn't be alone during this last final stretch. My mom made sure I took a class, which happened to be her childbirth class but I had witnessed plenty of natural child births, my moms and another womans, so I guess I wasn't as scared as others seem to be. I went into labor about 3 or 4am on January 11th, 2008. We didn't head to the hospital until about 9 or 10am. When we got there I skipped the admitance process because my mom knew what she was talking about and the doctor called ahead and approved it. I wasn't hooked up to an IV and didn't recieve any medication and during the whole time, up until I was pushing, there were only 3 people in the room, my mom, the doctor and myself. I had some back labor, but not a ton. I pushed for 2 1/2 hours, got some stitches and finally got to spend time with my baby boy. I am glad that I chose to keep my baby boy. He brings me joy every single day and would take nothing back.
Kyleigh, on the other hand, was totally different. My asthma acted up with her, had to go to the hospital for a breathing treatment and was given an inhaler for just in case after that. I had her 2-3 weeks early. I wasn't due unil the 23rd of July but this baby girl has a mind of her own, no joke. I had been leaking for 3 days before I went into actual labor, I wasn't sure what I was leaking and me being me I called my mom and didn't worry about it. Nate had joked with me the day before that he kinda wished that she was born on the 4th so he would remember her birthday. I went into labor the next morning, 4th of July. Went to the same hospital that I had Aiden in and had a completely different experience. My mom had planned on being here but that didn't happen so we headed up to the hospital, went through the admitence process and found that it was my water that had been leaking for 3 days. This labor was shorter than Aiden by a few hours but had a lot more back labor, again I did not have medication during labor but they did hook me up to an IV since I had been leaking for 3 days. This time around I had Nate, his parents, my dad and a couple of siblings there, a full room, not to mention the really nice nurse, wish I could remember her name. This time I didn't push for 2 1/2 hours, it was less than 5 minutes and I had my baby girl. The only complication I had with her was that I was bleeding more than I should have been so they had to give me a little tiny pill to stop it and it did.
I chose to have my kids the way I did and honeslty, it didn't hurt that much at all to me. Everyone is different but for me, I didn't want to have a drugged up baby and would rather go through pain if that is what's best for my child. I would never get induced and I would never have a c-section unless it was a life or death situation, those are my words, no one elses.
